A Thin Red Line Between Realistic and Surrender

I did finally make my decision, i chose to work in Japanese Trading Company  as the sales administration. It's totally different with my educational background, huh?! at first, i intended to work in totally different field with my study, for specific, i actually wished for working in social or charity purposes world organization ( as it has been told in previous post ) but the reality is kind of difficult for fresh graduate with almost zero experience like me to be employed in that kind of world organization ( based on my observation during my volunteering in UNICEF). Second, only this Japanese company ( so far ) which show their interest to employ me, thus they seem have no intention to make a complicated contract or rules ( they didn't even put some 6000 rupiah-stamp on the signed contract papers, hah! ). So, i did thinking to realize that it's pretty good to experience a job that has quite good salary and not-so binding contract. Speaking of the job itself, only God knows how it will be, i hope it won't make me stress out and most important, the company's ambience will be warm and friendly ( fingers crossed ). I will start work on next wednesday on 3 months probation under the supervisor of automotive part division. One of the saddest part of taking this job offer is i will no longer tutoring Britney and Westley who have been my students since two years ago. Due to the distance from my office to their house which completely far and impossibly catch up the time especially in rush-hours route in the evening, so i sadly determine to stop tutoring them, i wish they could find the way way better tutor than me . I know deep down my heart that i wish for another job, the one that closest to my will is becoming quotation executive in some global travel, but they haven't called me so far, it will be so damn gambling if i turned down the japanese's offer and hoping or waiting uncertain job offer from that travel which i'm quite not believe to happen. I guess i'm becoming unrealistic and greedy day by day. Now, i'm not trying to give up on my dream, i just being realistic and hey.. i need money as well. I keep telling myself that if i wanted to achieve my dreams, i would have to be patience and keep fighting step by step. I won't forget or even back myself off from my dream, but i need to keep it slow for a moment. Moreover, i'm looking forward for bigger plans like waiting and wishing for the result of US scholarship and who knows the job offer in that big soda company. Goodspeed.